I was a junior in college, and my life was an absolute mess. I was trying to walk with the Lord and get into the Word daily. I attended a Cru Bible study, as well as led a Bible study for freshmen. Yet, I continued to struggle and could not figure out why. There was no joy in my life. There was no freedom. I wrestled with depression. I was not growing closer to Christ.

One of the requirements for student leaders in Cru at Indiana University was to be discipled. My introverted self shuddered at the thought of sitting across from Megan, the Cru staff woman who would try to get me to divulge my deepest, darkest secrets. It didn’t sound like freedom — it sounded like death (allow me to be a bit dramatic).

Slowly, I began to realize the goal of discipleship is not my comfort. The goal of discipleship is to seek Christ and grow in Him. After a whole semester of meeting with Megan, I admitted my struggle with depression. I remember confessing to Megan and myself, “I’m a Bible study leader, and I’m not perfect. I’m a mess.” She listened with love and genuine care. Even just this moment of confession before Megan and the Lord brought such freedom. I didn’t don’t have to hide my struggle. I couldn’t can’t keep things in the dark and expect to live in the light. It is as true now as it was then.

The Lord introduced me to the reality of 1 John 1:7: “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.”

Discipleship opened the door for me to live a life of true confession and experience what authentic, Christ centered community looks like. It’s not a two-hour block of time set aside to check off a box. Discipleship is relationship. It is saying, “I’m going to walk beside you. I’m going to rejoice when you rejoice and weep when you weep. I’m going to push you to Christ in every single area of your life because He is the only thing that matters.” Through discipleship, we grow in relationship with Christ and with one another.

If you’re still questioning whether or not discipleship is for you, consider this: Jesus, the Savior of the world, invested his limited time here on earth into the lives of twelve ordinary, sinful men.

“And he appointed twelve (whom he also named apostles) so that they might be with him and he might send them out to preach.” (Mark 3:14)

Jesus called these men to be his disciples so (1) they might be with him and (2) they would be sent out to proclaim his name.

I do not want to shrink back from real relationships leading to more of Christ. I want more of Christ so I can have strength to carry out His command to invest my life making disciples of all nations.


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